Well everytime I see Nikki post a weblog I feel like I have to too :) ...just because

Um...I have my Stats final tonight omg...I have been studying for it for forever its at 7 pm tonight until 10 and then tomorrow I have physio at 8 am....fml both are cumulative.

Other than that I just have an English portfolio due next Friday and my non-cumulative World Civ final Thursday I can't friggin wait until this year is overrr.

My bio dad is coming to pick me up from school. It will be really cool he is coming up with my brother Dan. I will be going back to stay at my moms/aunts for a few days then I will be staying with Katherine until she has her baby probably. Then I am hoping to just be able to 'party hop' through friends houses for a few days at a time because if I don't I will have to come back to Buffalo mad early :(  but I really want to be able to see everyone.

Idk....sometimes I feel unwanted :( I know that is a depressing thought but I guess that's what happens when you don't have a stable home. I don't need empathy from anybody it just is how it is and it sucks butt.

This summer I can hopefully get a used car AND I FOUND ONE! My brother is going to check it out for me and then I can go onto my moms insurance....that way I can drive myself to school next year. =]

Hmmm what else I am almost officially a member of the army and of course now I am having second thoughts you know? but whatev I need to do that to get through school. I have also been thinking about transferring to NVCC for nursing not because I hate it here or it's too expensive but because that way I can finish the nursing program up way earlier than here....mostly because I would be going for my associates and not my bsn. whatev....too many thoughts so little time.

But for now I am going to decide what I want to get for lunch and then back to studying until my tests.....bbwl. :) or until Nikki writes another one.

Okay so I can not believe that it is already Christmas season. Like everything just went by super speedy this semester and it is INSANE!

This is my last week of classes. I have my nursing final this Wednesday during my last class and then I have to hand in a movie review for English on Friday and then I am done with those two classes.

My World Civilizations final is next Monday Dec. 8th, can't wait to get that one done and over with. Then my last final is the following Monday Dec. 15th for anatomy. THEN...I am going HOME! AHHH! I can't wait like I honestly am so excited. I don't care about Xmas and New Years the day I go home is going to be my real celebration. I can't wait to see everyone again, I miss you ALL so friggin much!

This week will probably involve getting a lot of work done and everything but once it is over everything will mostly be smooth sailing. I will wrap up studying for World Civ over the weekend. Then I have a full week to study for anatomy.

AND....ON THE SUPER PLUS SIDE! My timesheets finally came through for work and I just finished filling them out, they owe me $932...I can't wait to get that. Plus I am working over the finals week because I only have those two exams so I will be getting over $1000 soon enough. Which makes sense because I have a $2000 award letter so I will get about $1000 next month as well! I CAN'T WAIT! :) :) :) :) :)

So as I was packing some of my stuff up to leave for Thanksgiving break I had the thought to check out xanga. A lot has changed since the last time I was on here. I don't even know if anyone will think to even look at my profile but that's okay.

The past few months have been incredible! I have met a lot of people of all different ethnicities, which is a big difference from being in Ct. As much as I love my friends here they would never compare to my friends at home. I have realized that I no longer have friends back home actually, just one giant and slightly dysfunctional family! I wouldn't change it for the world though.

Being away from certain people too has helped me to find myself more and to realize how much I really love them. There is soooo much going on too I can't even begin to type it up.

Let's see:

My sister is pregnant and she just found out it was a boy. I mean wow I know that I am already an aunt but this is my biological family, it's weird.  My godson will be 2 years old this year, I can't believe that. My brother Mike is also having a baby due in the summer of 2009. The thing that is weird though is this is happening so young. I mean his girlfriend is only 18 and Tiffs boyfriend is 19. I don't know what to think about that yet.

I work in the Leadership office here at school and I finally got the financial part of that figured out! AHHH! It was a nightmare. They had lost my paperwork and at some point my award letter was canceled. But I went and got that fixed today and everything is in order now (at least I hope) I mean I have been working for about two months now and I want that few hundred dollars to help me pay my phone bill and everything.

I know I am skipping around right now but I am just trying to sum up as much as I can. Ugh.

Some people think I am crazy for getting the Iphone. It is super expensive but there is so much to it that is useful for me I can't even begin to explain. I mean I use the phone to talk to my mom once in awhile but when I first got up here it wasn't working (the signals weren't going through right) so I could text but I couldn't talk. Let me tell you that freaked my mom out quite a bit she thought I was killed, oops. Ha, but that is fixed now. I use the ipod everyday I mean I have to travel from North to South campus everyday and it is a half hour bus ride so that is super nice. And since I have been here I have used the camera on my phone like there is no tomorrow. I think in the first month and a half I took a few hundred pictures (most of which are posted on facebook and eventually on myspace). So I don't mind paying  a big monthly fee for it and if it means I have to scrape by then so be it, obviously I am on my own and I need to handle that problem myself.

What else can I talk about.....

I met a guy up here, he is really nice although the first time I really met him and what not it wasn't too pleasant, but it was just some stupid youth act and since then he has been really nice. I am still not sure if I want to start a relationship with him but as time goes on I guess we will see. I am not one for rushing into anything so yeah....

For the past two months I have been trying to make a big decision and I think I am going to go through with it finally. There is a special branch of ROTC that I can join for nursing. It has great benefits. They would pay for my schooling so going to school out-of-state won't be a problem. Of course I will owe them some service but it is not like I have to fight I get to do nursing work. I figure if I do that like 4 years or something then I can work in a hospital for a year and then do what I really want to do: FORENSIC NURSING!

So that is about all I can think about right now, I have to go and check my laundry.